I cannot let 2018 pass away without some acknowledgement. For, I am most certainly not the same person I was when it started…
And, at the moment (maybe always), the question is: who am I?
I almost ended that query with the word “exactly”. It is the “exactly” part that has always been the problem. This revelation has been more of a gentle yet swift fade in of soft light than a sudden lightbulb.
I am a Multi-disciplinary Cath-art-ist! A hack-of-all-arts (and a few trades). There is no one pigeon hole for this bird. I migrate. I do land in the same ponds along the way over and over. The journey only seems so haphazard because I keep trying to stay in one place. I get all discombobulated. I miss whole legs of the journey then, have to try to catch up.
The problem has always been in trying to choose one focal point. I cannot settle in one niche anymore than a Monarch butterfly or a Canada Goose could remain in my neighborhood park 12 months a year (I haven’t even been able to write this on one device today. And, I’ve been in 2 cities. This is actually the first blog I have written on my phone!)
I now see that I will only ever find stability in accepting, embracing and working with my variable nature. I am riding into this new year without hope or expectaion. Instead, I want to greet 2019 with courage and curiosity. Confident that I will find something…
Happy New Year to all!